Its World Mental Health day and I chose to post two pictures one of what I looked like a few years back and one from a few days back.
The girl in the first photo is obviously beautiful, she’s skinny, she’s your regular version of hot and she was the girl a lot of people wanted to be.
But what no one knew or understood was how messed up her mind was, she was almost an alcoholic, a heavy smoker, snarky, an A class bitch, loved gossip, motor mouthed, easy and in the worst place she had ever been. Though it never showed…. The girl in the second picture is what the world calls fat, she doesn’t party, she doesn’t drink, she even gave up smoking (almost) , she is ‘homely’ and not what she used to be. But do you know what she is now that she wasn’t before? She’s happy and she is so in love with herself. She counts her blessings each day and then goes out and kicks some butt to just get more! More happy, more content, more stable.
She still has her own set of challenges, anxiety, OCD, rage but she’s accepting of it, she faces her demons head on and she learns to stride on. And she lifts!
That’s me, a girl who at her outward best was at her inward worst and now at her outward worst is at her inward best. I got here with a lot of help, love, unconditional friendship and sheer grit. I see a therapist, I talk my heart out and I do so openly, because we need to break the silence surrounding mental illness and health. If I talk about it loudly then maybe someone listening quietly will find a way to deal with their own monsters.
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